I’ve recently hit 300 followers and as grateful as I am, I wanted to do more than just say thank you. I want to share as much as I’m able with my readers because they inspire me to keep doing what I’m doing. Two months ago I admitted that I’ve suffered from anxiety for years and it’s affected a lot of my relationships. I wanted to give you an update on how I’m feeling.
Over the past two months I’ve admitted a few things to friends that have been painful to talk about because I’ve been holding them back for so long. I’ve learned some uncomfortable truths about myself. The issues I’ve built up inside my head feel like less of a problem now that I’ve been more honest about them. What once felt crippling, like talking in a group of people is starting to feel easier.
I’ve become more self-aware and what I need to do in order to become happier. I’m not going to pretend that everything will fall into place at first. There will be times I stumble, where I will slip back into old behaviours. But opening up about it has started to shift something inside of me. To look back at myself in January I felt like I was lost. How I feel now is more centred. I’ve found my ideal job as a copywriter and I’m building myself up a bit at a time.
Acknowledging that I’ve made progress seems scary because I’ve held onto sadness for so long that I wonder who I’d be without it. But the clouds are beginning to part and cracks of sunlight are shining through. I’m going to continue on this path and see where it takes me.
So, thank you for following me and continuing to read my work. The more that mental health among men can be discussed the more lives it can save.